Some things are something. But sometimes, it’s nothing
A sunny afternoon right after a heavy rain while you were on a hard time could be a sign that your glory days will come. It’s amazing how we give meanings on things easily as if it were all written in a dictionary.
If my heart is beating intensely up and down, I would probably think that there is bad going to happen. When that kind of nervousness comes out of nowhere, I try to think of happy core memories— I deny the thoughts that something isn’t going really well.
I’m an unpaid actress in my own entertainment agency because of being dramatic and full of emotions every time there is something going on.
If I sent you a message now and you haven't responded for three minutes, I'll be thinking that you're not interested in what I'm saying.
You're the worst... or am I?
I was in a half sleep last night when I saw mom sitting beside my bed. The next morning, she didn’t greet me “Good morning”. And I had a thought that maybe last night, she saw her shirt in my cabinet. Or she read something flirty on my phone.
We were in a table eating breakfast, but you still didn’t even spend the time to look at me. There were tons of my mind that morning because I didn’t know why you were acting like that.
Then an afternoon came, and you were on a phone call with someone. You were worried about the money, bills, and other expenses in our house.
I was mad at her for not talking to me, but hearing that conversation made me mad at myself now. You can not call our home perfect, but considering my mom thinking of us is made it better.
Words are starting to become whole sentences and paragraphs of realization. NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT ME. Maybe mom was looking at me that night because she was just trying to have a moment with me without me seeing her struggling. Maybe she wasn’t talking to me because she doesn’t want to suddenly throw her problems to me. She doesn’t want to say something that I wasn’t supposed to hear.
There are just moments where we don’t see the other side of life, and that’s okay. I shouldn’t have taken it personally. We should not always take every part of this world personally.
Some seasons, our assumption could take us to a dangerous situation. Because some things are something...
But sometimes it's nothing.
Written by Seenicaetoh
